Now that I have a child…

There are so many things that I have learned to take for granted as an adult.  When did the sunset become boring?  When did making meals become a chore?  How did I forget how beautiful the flowers, ladybugs & birds are?

Now that I have a child I get the chance to see the world from his eyes and what a curious, wonderful perspective it is!  He finds joy & laughter in the things that I have trained myself to overlook which in-turn has helped me to appreciate those things again.

Now that I have a child I get the chance to literally stop & smell the roses.  He loves the colors, the textures & the variety of flowers he sees.  They make his nose crinkle & his smile grow big.

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Now that I have a child I get the opportunity to chase the geese at the park, pick up the ladybugs in the backyard & hold the wooly caterpillar that scurries across the sidewalk.

Now that I have a child I get the joy of waking up in the middle of the night to rock my little man back to sleep.  At first these mid-sleep wake up calls were more than annoying, but I have begun to cherish the late night snuggle sessions and the quiet bliss of 2 am.

Now that I have a child I get to wake up at the crack of dawn to experience the morning sunrise; something I have never truly appreciated since waking at 5 or 6 am didn’t exist.  My son & I sit in the morning room and gaze at the pinks, reds and yellows of the morning sun – breathtaking.

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Now that I have a child preparing dinner & making healthy meals is an exciting adventure, especially since he is captivated by what’s happening in the kitchen.  I make fresh breads & applesauce regularly and have experimented with new recipes such as chicken zucchini fritters, stuffed shells and parmesan meatballs.

Since the moment I became a mother my world has been turned upside down; I live in a fast-paced, exhausted, mad world of a toddler & I wouldn’t have it any other way.  The love I have for him is unexplainable, it’s just…wonderful.

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My battle with swearing

I love to swear.  There’s just something about inappropriate language that is…well, appropriate.  When I first became a mother I didn’t worry too much about my foul mouth because as a newborn my son was barely aware of his surroundings let alone what I was saying.  However, now that he is 16 months he is listening to everything I say & watching my every move; quick to learn & imitate.

How am I supposed to properly express myself?  Son of a biscuit, fudge nugget & gosh doggy just don’t have the same ring to it.  How depressing.  He hasn’t started talking just yet, but it’s coming any day now and I would be mortified if his first sentence included some of my favorite filthy words.

Pardon my French, but F*CK!

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Is it nap time yet?

In an earlier blog post My Glimpse into Morning Refuge I wrote about starting my day in a peaceful state before the madness began.  Ever since that entry I have tried to set my alarm & wake up before my son, but he always beats me to the punch; I swear he knows I’m trying to start my day without him!  Such a sweetheart but he definitely has a fear of missing out (#FOMO).

Every morning is a different adventure, especially since he is 16 months and ever-changing.  This morning was no exception.  My little man either caught a cold or is congested from playing in the foliage while picking apples & pumpkins, either way he hasn’t been sleeping at night.  Last night he was asleep and in bed by 8 PM but woke up coughing & crying at 9 PM, 11 PM, midnight, 2 AM, 5 AM and 6:30 AM. Needless to say, I maybe got 2 hours of sleep.  He didn’t sleep well the night before either (no shocker there, he normally wakes up at least twice), but I was hoping for a good un-interrupted 5 hours.

Exhausted & half asleep I decided to put him in bed with me to watch Mickey Mouse while I closed my eyes & slowly woke up.  By 7 AM he was bored & ready for breakfast.  We did our morning routine of making the bed & brushing our teeth before heading downstairs to the kitchen.  He drank a sippy cup of almond milk (whole milk upsets his stomach) while I put away last night’s dishes.  Once his milk was gone he was ready for a banana which he ate while taking all of the pots & pans out of the cabinet.  At 7:30 he ate a big bowl of multi-grain Cheerios while I quickly checked my e-mail and talked to my husband.  Eating cereal usually takes him 30 minutes since he likes to feed himself every other bite.

Once breakfast was finished and his cheerio-made chaos was cleaned up I decided to make Apple Cinnamon Muffins.  I put Curious George on the TV while I mixed my ingredients, but within 5 minutes my little man was in the kitchen ready to help.  I love his interest with cooking/baking so I let him stir the apples into the batter.  While pouring the batter into the muffin tins my quick, curious babe grabbed the glass measuring cup; in hindsight I should have used a metal one.  Before I could react it smashed to the floor, but I guess it’s not an adventure without an accident!  I put him in the pack n play so I could sweep and vacuum the glass pieces.  He seemed very content so I let him hang out in there with his stuffed animals while I FINALLY made a cup of coffee!  In those few moments to myself I wrote this blog entry which probably doesn’t make much sense since it was rushed, but it was such a busy weekend and I have not had the chance to write in a while.

It is only 9:30 AM and we’ve already made a mess, broke something, baked muffins, ate breakfast & a morning snack, had two meltdowns, stuffed magnets into the heating vent and I’ve had to reheat my coffee three times!  Is it nap time yet…?

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